I started my day well, despite Storm Nicole blowing us all around. Yes, it was raining, and raining and the more I was thinking of how much it was raining, how sloshy the rain is, how cold and damp the rain would feel on my skin, how much work I had, decisions to make and people to reach out to. I realized an old pattern tried to creep in...procrastination.
Believe me I am so happy I am running, when I went to bed last night I felt proud I was putting me first but as quickly as this morning, amazing to see sabotage attempting to knock my good feelings down a notch. I will just need to be more aware and make sure I make a point to bee line it straight from drop off to my routine.
I so do not have time to waste, but this morning instead I...
1. went to Starbucks to grab a treat coffee (I make mine at home most of the time, this time it was a stalling technique)
2. went to Kmart to pick up winter boots. (could have been done after my "Fully Fit work out" time that I have now scheduled into my calendar: 8:30am-10am, shower included) but hey, I was on auto pilot, repeating an old pattern...
tick tick tick the time went and without knowing, an hour slipped by.
Finally I checked in with myself and said, drive....just drive to the reservoir, get out of the car, lock the car, now RUN. You heard me RUN...(I am one of "those", I talk to myself, also).
What's up? About to give myself permission to skip out on my daily gift of exercise because of a little rain (its not soup falling on your head for God sake!)...really, Emme!
I called myself a duck, waddling down the rain soaked path and brought it back to an encouraging comment. "I'm a duck, but a running, committed duck", (I cracked myself up) "not many out on a day like today", "I actually like the rain" and so on till I was done with my loop.
Thank YOU for helping me mark another day on my calendar in honor of my goddessness and health! Glad to know I am not alone in this effort to find balance!
Hats off to my comfy Ryka running shoes (size 11 mind you!) and trusty Columbia rain baseball cap with back flap...those two items made a difference today.